werid feelings...
i hate the word 'jealously'!!!
y i hate it but i still do it...
argh....if i write it out all here i think its will be too obvious so i shldnt
u came to say hi 2day...
i was like hi~~[weridish]
the situation kinda bad.....
hmm... utold me just now if i can make all alpha come 4 pop practice, he will come too...
iguess i shall give it one last try...
2day freakking angry with jireh... he drew on the copy of fancy i gave him
told someone tat it all look like cheerleading...
if u so pro do it lah...
formation i do one dun complain!!!
my eye hurts... its like very long liao
i scared i got eye infection...
like when i take out my contacts its pain
but i put back it feels ok ler...
so weird...
dun wanna type anymore...eye hurts everytime i blink...
~wish jealously will be at the back of my freakking damn head~
unworth~less tear
hiaz... HIAZ...
when will ppl be more cooperative?
when will ppl be more mature?
when will ppl think they no actually need a known position?
i dk lah... im very tired liao... VERY
y everytime i get enthu others are not?
u plan the whole damn freakking thing with me and now u say u dun wanna join in...
did u know tat day u 'scolding' me in front of ac is like i seriously wanted to burst out and run?
did you know tat its very hard to put up a hard face image infront of u?
did you know tat i out tat image to show tat im NOT despo?
did you know the reason for tearing?
i guess u didnt know this much...
i took freakking long time to research for formation for songs PLEAD ppl to choose the song?
with ur one word 'cancel' u know how much i feel everything is wasted?
u shld know the proud~ness of the pride of ur own work
den y say cancel wheen its like a part of me?
now my mum starting to complain y i always spend my afternoons doing the pop
and now i feel if its cancel then all my afternoons i used its GONE...
bet u didnt know the impact was so great...
tired very tired...
i dun know wad to say liao...
the more i say i feel like tearing somemore
like i was telling sam all abt in physics lesson and i teared again
[KAIWEN SWEARS TAT SHE WILL NEVER EVER TEAR IN SOMEONE FACE!]
YES....hate them to c when my heart feels like breakking...
i have nothing more to say...
i hack HACK HACK
for the mos ppl do wad ur want larh i hack about u guys who cant even put in the last effort to do smth for ur own platoon...
hate tearing!!!!! luckily no ones beside me now...
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
y must i be in a platoon who doesnt treasure themselves?!?!?!?
feel like damn freakking screaming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
agony!!! i feel tat in me now!!!!
calm down!!! argh!!!! cant stand it anymore no more posting for 2day...
THIS MAKE ME FEEL DAMN DAMN SICK!!!!!
good and bad...
haha... finally friday...
good bad
-found out blog got mobile posting -someone bu shuang 2day...haha idc liao abt her
-st. john is moved to the front today!!! -got pumping in front of cadets [sgt leh!!!]
-just remember sunday tution is not 4hrs -tution is scale down back to 2hrs
-complete most of my cutting list -tan woon wee screwed me yesterday
-drawing for data analysis is nice -tan woon wee dun understand the nice~ness of graffiti
-can used papa's com during weekend -its only for the weekend
-excited to get back my com to do d&t -deadline is freakking near
hahas... i guess to much liao!!!
gonna go facebk or stalk ppl in blog liao...
tata!!!
no feeling??
drama_crazy1994
pondering...
hmm... is kinda werid now u know...
ms cheng changed the place we sit...
was thinking she would change mine but in the end never leh...
clara now sit beside teresa...
kinda think it wont affect our friendship
gen sit with yuting...
those 2 never talk 2gether in their entire life...
wonder how it would end up...
and LAST but not least, SAM is SITTING with JULYN....
hmm.. i can c tat sam is bu shuang at first when ms cheng out her temp. beside hadi...
den she confronted ms cheng and told her tat she wans to sit with julyn....
no objections but i find tat idk lah...
i always thought students wont get wad they wan but this time is different she get to ulfill her wish...
i feel them floating more away from me...
shld i be disbanded or disband on my own accord?
hmm...its like when i talk to them den they will talk 2 me...
i doubt this is a friendship at all...
wonder can they c this pt a not...
hmm... i talk 2 them like still quite friendly leh...
idk larh..
i think best way from coming out of such trouble is to just sort of slowly come out but still talk to them just never go out with them during recess only...
STILL FRIENDS LARH...
but not as close liao...
is sam wans to eat lunch with me also can...
i shall officially join the 'deborah clara mich chienhui' group...
i think i still cant accept teresa cause i was 'trained' to hate her...
hmm... so i shall try it out 2moro???
like infiltrate out a little...
yepp...
tata!!!
choing d&t and waiting for mummy to be back...
drama_crazy1994
so lol!!!
sweet 16th b'day!!!
TO:
myself ,sgt damain, mdm tiff sis
&
many others out there!!!
hmm...lots to write...
hahas. finally find the time to blogseh...
just came back from com camp freakking fun although mentally tiring...
hahas....wish it will just stop at the moment and olevel will not come...
hiaz... actually wanted to blog b4 i went for camp but 4got...
b4 i went in the last day, i was thinking tat there is someone hating me more and more...
but 2day i c tat person, tat person like drifting away from me...
dun even bother i there or not...
hmm also realise tat someone pro will also show jealous one...
nvm... dun bother now....
just wanna live my life in the way i wan...
3rd day of camp was damn emoish lo...
cause i know to mush info liao...
first sgt damin and sir stanley 'quarrel' in front of me...
one say dun wanna stress nc3 anymore...
another say just continue...
hiaz...made me stun confused emo and dun know wad larh...
2nd thing, jeremiah show me a sms by my sis...
she say she agree tat she had failed as a trainer and its like not her style of doing this lo....
wonder wad she feel at tat point of time...
also saying tat have skills and w/o discipline is nt gd...
hmm...discipline still can train cause com wont need tat but skills is needed in com...
also saying to give up on them... haiz...
thus making me fully emo...
i also somehow feel tat muzah fall down bcause of me cause i was the one at first to plan wad chen wei is abt to run one...
feeling gulity...
2moro got amaths so cant celebrate bday in afternoon...sadded...
tata!!!
gonna go post alpha blog...
drama_crazy1994
why....
hiaz... i told my mum tat i will be going out on 17 in the afternoon den she sense tat i feel a little fishy and ask me who i going out with...
den i told her friend but she kept on asking she guessed jeremiah
hiaz hiaz...i told her only going movie, lunch and arcade she also say cannnot...say must someone go also and must be girl...
i know she got pian jian of jeremiah but just doing the normal things wad....
den i tell jeremiah abt it but.... hiaz... nvm i wondering y got more ppl he dun wan,
sounds suspicious...
hmmmhack ler... going to tell mdm jas tat day go out bah...
hahas... going to do wad normal ppl does!!!
things i feel i want/need[hmm in my perception is 'need' but in urs is want hahas]
* can buy for me 4 my b*** hor!!!
-sunglasses...jie jie always say i look werid in sunglasses...
i will sure wear it when i wear my nice looking cap!!!
-a new handphone
hahas this? no one will have money for it lah!!!
-a new lappy
same no one will buy me tat lo must wait for 1 more year...haiz...
-a pass to fast forward my time until after my o's
so lol...no one will find it lo...
haiz dun know lah smth digital... can play jiu ke yi ler...
lol!!! first time guang ming zhen da tao presents!!!
tata!!!
if one forgets 17 is for wad i shall kill u cause it is written ------>
drama_crazy1994
the underlines of the life...
hmm... ilove the title of the post...
it make me ponder a lot...
reason for writing this is cause i guess i have lots of underlines in next week when i c my report bk
hiaz...dun know wad to write more relating the title of post..
nvm... 2moro got cip den i got comp training...
nth to watch now...
need to bath soon...
nthto write liao so seldom blogg now...
when i got smth to blogg den will blogg...
tata!!!
friday night is the night of non studying...<-answering my mum's question on blogg...haha
drama_crazy1994
another day passed...
soo sian seh...
no hmwk but got test...
too lazy to study for any test...
hiaz...
u came to sms me 2day...
felt excited and the conversion prolonged...
hahas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
sam and julyn say they wan celebrate my bday another day...
soo i went to ask charlene just now...
she say yes!!!
u know the yes is golden!!!!
hahas...she's gonna have a hard time to persuade mich 2 go...
how am i going to tell yuting seh...
i shall go tell her now den go watch show and fall aslp...
tata!!!
u said when u return u will sms but u didnt...waiting...
drama_crazy1994
days passing...
soo gd 2day no hmwk...
added a few m0re lyrics into the file...
i think lots of ppl have lots to discuss on post 101...
btw just claiming tat its over...
few months away we'll be graduating and dun know whether we will meet again
so...
i think we shld just treat everyone equally...
the lyrics i print seriously hard to sing sia
tongue tied liaos...hahas
waiting for the illustions or wadever show to start at 10
i wanna to c how gd it is ...
ppl say they at the shoot str. away learn the magic...
the ppl also help them insurance...
i wanna go bath liao...
tata!!!
shld i add a tagboard?
drama_crazy1994
* when i dun add tagboard, ppl come talk to me on my post
when i add tagboard, ppl dun even tag me...
